half of my love story not completed

seeing my friends getting married one by one, I heard a cry in my heart that I am still single, I do not call for desperate measure to go out for man hunt, but it's hurt me to see that others have another half to lean on when you need a favour and you can return a favour. I have none.

This thoughts does not cheer me up. It makes me cry alot. I still waiting for the right person to come.

God , you will lead the way.

Shit does happen

Today mark the second day of my unusual encounter with you.
it's my 1st , and I have given up it for you.
and thanks to you. I am feeling so painful deep down.
guilty as judge. Yes, I have took thing with God for granted and I have side track from reading bible and be in communication with God. Some times, when i need help then only I ask God for help. God I am sorry.
I know you are God of many chances, each time I fall, you are there to comfort me and to guide me. Thank you , God . I truly am blessed to know you as my personal savior.
I know I am in deep shit. Something that I can't un-done it again. the guilt and the pain is consistently reminding me that I have side track from God and just act on my own human flesh and my own wishful thinking.
I have let down myself, to my own basic policy. If my parents know it, they will be blown away because from a little girl they have bring me up to not play with fire.

Now, I have burn myself. I am guilty as charge. I feel so remorse sometimes. when I am alone, I started to think, this is not the way that my parent have bring me up. I do not know how to come clean infront of them anymore. The guilt linger in my heart. This is not Hollywood, this Elizabeth a girl who hold on to a basic principles for so long. But now, I let me guide down , and did it anyway. I know that I am big to be an adult, but that does not mean that it is a passport to burn myself and make my heart so guilty.

I am worried of my monthly signals, and I am worried of my blood test. I really pray that everything is going to be alright. I need forgiveness and I know I have been forgiven by God and HE is the person whom give second chance for me.

MOS

tired =) but kinda happy cos get to go into MOS. Finally right? been waiting for so long....now after everything- fun and music...my whole body is aching...hahhahhhahahahha

but never the less, it is nice to meet new ppl, and I finally saw "what is drunk person" all about...

Chelsea and Stefinie =) thanks.

self- reflection

Time alone, is a good time, to clear up your head and do what is necessary for you to improve yourself and enjoy being yourself. it's a reflection of what are your weeks and how are you take it so far.

If all the time you are with friends that would mean that it's good cos you got company but sometimes, there is time to be alone.

I guess that how human are build up to be.

Self Reflection: it's important to know that life is in the blood flowing through one's body. So life is sacred.

Fate

I dreamed about you on friday before my dawn begin. I felt weird but no doubt I was excited, and started to think what is the dream all about. Then I continue as I normally would do for work and at office and going back home.

After reaching home, I started preparing myself for Chairmaine's house warming party. I did not think much about it and I enjoyed myself over at her house.

Hence, while preparing for Chairmaine's house warming party, I was early so I decided to doll up- culler and eye make up. Then after James call for yum cha that night, I was saying ok and I call along Jun Kit and Filbert too.

Then when I arrived at William's corner- I saw you. I look twice to double confirm that you are you. It's really you - YOU. I fumble around my bag to get my handphone to contact James. Then you walk over to come and greet me. I was excited...lolz...dunno why.......but no doubt I felt it's could be something that God is telling ka? We chatted for a while, while waiting for my YC 's kaki friends to arrived until your friends call you back because they need to go back to Nilai. you came all the way from Nilai to fetch your friends' brother and when William's to eat dinner cum supper....I was there for YC, wat a coincident. I still hold the torch for you...just dunno y? evethough (WE) happen long time ago.

I guess it's just FATE.

i am not little any more.

I dislike you. I don't understand y a person can't drive herself in a big town? why? why? your reason is just silly. it's not that I just want a car that y I took up the sale and marketing position. it is not.

don't you think that a car is a necessity? do you? can you meet with customers if you dun have a car? it's very hard to get a public transport and it's time consuming to wait and sit the bus and travel around. it is hard, sometimes, traleving by public transport is tiring. I dun see your point.

ok fine, so what if I am working with a hob that does not required traveling. I will have to wake up early to travel to work and come back later then others because I need to travel by public transport. so you are happy with that la, you don't mind going to bus stop early in the morning and coming back very late at nite and not every place is accessibly with public transport.. I know that somtimes I am unreasonable, but you don't see my point. you dun understand that diffiiculties and you don't see it in my shoe.

i am little any more, you doesn't need to be so fearful that of my safety. I just need a little more space. I am able to take care of myself. i hate you.

How to Spot a Republican

Saw this on Google's reader, it was hilarious..

Spotted in the comments of a Crooks and Liars post, this laugher about a woman lost in a hot air balloon has been making its way around the Internet.

BaScOmBe commenting at Crooks and Liars:

A woman in a hot air balloon realized she was lost. She lowered her altitude and spotted a man in a boat below. She shouted to him, “Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I don’t know where I am.”

The man consulted his portable GPS and replied, “You’re in a hot air balloon, approximately 30 feet above ground elevation of 2,346 feet above sea level. You are at 31 degrees, 14.97 minutes north latitude and 100 degrees, 49.09 minutes west longitude.

“She rolled her eyes and said, “You must be an Obama Democrat.”

“I am,” replied the man. “How did you know?”

“Well,” answered the balloonist, “everything you told me is technically correct. But I have no idea what to do with your information, and I’m still lost. Frankly, you’ve not been much help to me.”

The man smiled and responded, “You must be a Republican.”

“I am,” replied the balloonist. “How did you know?”

“Well,” said the man, “you don’t know where you are or where you are going. You’ve risen to where you are due to a large quantity of hot air. You made a promise you have no idea how to keep, and you expect me to solve your problem. You’re in exactly the same position you were in before we met, but somehow, now it’s my fault.”